Y'know, I used to think life was pretty simple. It was, actually. Wake up, go to school, pine over the girl you like in second period- not a word about that, though- homework. Studying, tests, hanging out with friends after school. Thinking about college. Playing a bit of music sometimes. That's how it used to be.
I think...looking back on it, it was nice. Not having to worry about anything like this.
My girlfriend is most likely only dating me to replace her former fiance. I'm debating my relationship with my best friend, who is also dating my girlfriend's former fiance, and...well, there are plenty more twists where that came from.
When did life turn into a live-action soap opera? When did the drama graduate high school and enter into the real world? When does this fantasy end, and real life begin?
I never told K-san, or Sakano, or even Shuichi. Never said a word about that. It's part of the reason I wanted to quit Bad Luck - it doesn't feel like real life. Reporters and CD sales, dating famous people, sunglasses. It's a fantasy I dreamed about when I was a kid...I never expected to be living it. I guess it scared me, almost scared me away from it.
...I was planning for medical school. My parents had hopes for me there and everything. While I think they're happy with me as a successful musician, I can't help but believe they're disappointed that I left the path they made for me.
Boy, I'm really ungrateful aren't I? I've got so much - a successful career, friends that care enough to embarass me on live TV, talent, fans. I even get to be around my idols. How many people can have all of that...and not be happy?
Guess that means it's time for me to step back and take a good look. Count my blessings, before they're all gone. I shouldn't even be worrying about any of this anyways, there's not a whole lot I can do about any of it.